One too many times
I see your eyes in light
and it only comforts loneliness
This, like many times
I can't deny, you're right
and I just feel the loveliness
I've left this behind before
and remorse stains my teeth
Caught in what awaits above
that I forgot what I left beneath
In partial
It's your pretty-ness
Our ignorance was wondrous
How it felt
was innocent
an alarm
chocked up to
and set to bad timing
In between every line
was a raging love
we blamed on selfishness
Leaking the love's brine
to thoughts I was thinking of
felt like righteousness
The stealth we used
the thrill we abused
the lines we fused
What was left to lose...
I could never match the feel
of what could only be surreal
In partial
It's your PrettyNess
The Ignorance was wondrous
It was always
innocent.
and I can't help but miss...
a feeling such as this
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
The Agnostic Front
What's that coming over the hilltops!?
It's....Religion!
Agonostics
Often confused with Atheists
Perceived as devil worshipers...
Well let me ask ya something. With so many religions out there, Is it wrong to just want to be human for the time being? The bible claims that so many things attribute to sin, including freewill! Christianity? It's slavery! It's slavery without chains, without shackles, without mercy. It locks itself into your mind and it convinces you that a man with healing powers ressurrected from the dead to ascend to heaven! Let's all keep in mind, this isn't taught in schools...Why? (Religious preference to separate church and state?) NO!!!!!! It's because Jesus Christ NEVER existed! If some fella had magical powers, was God's true son, and ressurected from the dead.........like Julius Fucking Caesar, he would've been documented by more that a handful of flimsy scholars!!!!!!!!!!! The Jesuits know this too! Catholic Priests! Molesting poor little boys. To lay down with a woman is a sin under the convent....so let's lay down with little Jake! It's a disgrace to itself! It's horrible!...but back to the Christians...
The late Heath Ledger led life famously
and had a blooming acting career
which includes the film "Brokeback Mountain"
.......................IN THE EVENT OF HIS FUNERAL, CHRISTIANS GATHERED TO PROTEST AND PICKET! PICKET A MAN'S BURIAL!!! BECAUSE OF A FILM HE STARRED IN!!
These are the same people who persecute and publicly humiliate the Homosexual community! and since our government is mostly composed of Christian men and women, these poor souls have to ask to pass a law to permit them to exchange vows in marriage!!!!!
Still devout!?
The last person who told me he was gonna pray for my tainted soul
got a few profanities tossed at him and then some. I do admit, my conduct was inappropriate but these are just the kind of people who look down on me from their pedestals with their holy comic book in hand.
As for other religions, my research isn't at it's best. That is why I've chosen to be agnostic this whole time. I am open to religion, but I can't bring myself to tie myself down or pick one for that matter.
I'm not trying to blast anyone
Just think for yourself please
Don't give your entire life to something
unless you're absolutely sure it's what your heart desires
"You'll never relive it, think before you die"
-Greg Graffin of Bad Religion
P.L.U.2.U
-<3
Johnny-Ray
It's....Religion!
Agonostics
Often confused with Atheists
Perceived as devil worshipers...
Well let me ask ya something. With so many religions out there, Is it wrong to just want to be human for the time being? The bible claims that so many things attribute to sin, including freewill! Christianity? It's slavery! It's slavery without chains, without shackles, without mercy. It locks itself into your mind and it convinces you that a man with healing powers ressurrected from the dead to ascend to heaven! Let's all keep in mind, this isn't taught in schools...Why? (Religious preference to separate church and state?) NO!!!!!! It's because Jesus Christ NEVER existed! If some fella had magical powers, was God's true son, and ressurected from the dead.........like Julius Fucking Caesar, he would've been documented by more that a handful of flimsy scholars!!!!!!!!!!! The Jesuits know this too! Catholic Priests! Molesting poor little boys. To lay down with a woman is a sin under the convent....so let's lay down with little Jake! It's a disgrace to itself! It's horrible!...but back to the Christians...
The late Heath Ledger led life famously
and had a blooming acting career
which includes the film "Brokeback Mountain"
.......................IN THE EVENT OF HIS FUNERAL, CHRISTIANS GATHERED TO PROTEST AND PICKET! PICKET A MAN'S BURIAL!!! BECAUSE OF A FILM HE STARRED IN!!
These are the same people who persecute and publicly humiliate the Homosexual community! and since our government is mostly composed of Christian men and women, these poor souls have to ask to pass a law to permit them to exchange vows in marriage!!!!!
Still devout!?
The last person who told me he was gonna pray for my tainted soul
got a few profanities tossed at him and then some. I do admit, my conduct was inappropriate but these are just the kind of people who look down on me from their pedestals with their holy comic book in hand.
As for other religions, my research isn't at it's best. That is why I've chosen to be agnostic this whole time. I am open to religion, but I can't bring myself to tie myself down or pick one for that matter.
I'm not trying to blast anyone
Just think for yourself please
Don't give your entire life to something
unless you're absolutely sure it's what your heart desires
"You'll never relive it, think before you die"
-Greg Graffin of Bad Religion
P.L.U.2.U
-<3
Johnny-Ray
Llama...No, the other "L" Word...
Love
Say what you will about it.
In truth, Love is a cruel coin toss
Heads: You find your soulmate, your true companion
Tails: You find...someone, In the end you're miserable, unfulfilled and empty.
Love is the greatest innovation of our evolution from the dawn of time to this very second. We all know how to love. The problem these days is that we are becoming more and more mismatched. Hence why so many marriages end in divorce, and kinships end in nothing at all. There are so many women for one man, and so many men for one woman, but that doesnt make it possible to have our cake and eat it too. One or two of those people may be right for you. You'll never know. Believe it or not, I am advocating the emotion. I really am. Love has dealt me some doozies. Love has even brought me self-destruction....but love has given me light into who is really out there. Whether they can be mine or not. Love has given me close family, Love has given me best friends, and love has even showed me how perfect a person can be that every emotion couldnt squeeze enough words out to properly describe it. The wrong love has made me miserable, and the right love has rendered me speechless.
So I guess what I'm trying to say is...
When it comes to love...
Gamble it all, man
Put your heart on the table
because as far as you know
you may get dealt the best hand you've ever had
and trust me, I know how it feels.
Don't get me wrong,
there will be losses
there will be tears
but you take a lesson with you
You take in the experience
Love is a many splendored thing
and it's changed my entire life.
Goodnight folks
much love,
Johnny-Ray :)
Say what you will about it.
In truth, Love is a cruel coin toss
Heads: You find your soulmate, your true companion
Tails: You find...someone, In the end you're miserable, unfulfilled and empty.
Love is the greatest innovation of our evolution from the dawn of time to this very second. We all know how to love. The problem these days is that we are becoming more and more mismatched. Hence why so many marriages end in divorce, and kinships end in nothing at all. There are so many women for one man, and so many men for one woman, but that doesnt make it possible to have our cake and eat it too. One or two of those people may be right for you. You'll never know. Believe it or not, I am advocating the emotion. I really am. Love has dealt me some doozies. Love has even brought me self-destruction....but love has given me light into who is really out there. Whether they can be mine or not. Love has given me close family, Love has given me best friends, and love has even showed me how perfect a person can be that every emotion couldnt squeeze enough words out to properly describe it. The wrong love has made me miserable, and the right love has rendered me speechless.
So I guess what I'm trying to say is...
When it comes to love...
Gamble it all, man
Put your heart on the table
because as far as you know
you may get dealt the best hand you've ever had
and trust me, I know how it feels.
Don't get me wrong,
there will be losses
there will be tears
but you take a lesson with you
You take in the experience
Love is a many splendored thing
and it's changed my entire life.
Goodnight folks
much love,
Johnny-Ray :)
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
ABCDLSD
ABCDLSD
by Johnny-Ray
I've got a crutch in my basement
She's chewing out the copper wire.
She's swallowed every lock and key
and is building a tinfoil empire
Defiled on all surfaces
and plastic to hide the wear.
Slit on many crevices
floss to stitch the tear
ABCDL..S...D
what always seems to spell itself
in her alphabet soup.
she packs a toothbrush
for her last acid trip to Asgard.
to rest at home
as the goddess of a "good fucking high"
adrenaline must rush to meet her lonely heart
and shock her back to solemn beauty.
some more blush and she'd be perfect
hide those tobacco shards in her smile
and she'd be well enough for a picture
pulling the wrinkles out of her relapse.
I've got a crutch in my bedroon
she's gnawing at my neck.
and she's seemed to swallow all of me
she's my peace sign shaped trainwreck
by Johnny-Ray
I've got a crutch in my basement
She's chewing out the copper wire.
She's swallowed every lock and key
and is building a tinfoil empire
Defiled on all surfaces
and plastic to hide the wear.
Slit on many crevices
floss to stitch the tear
ABCDL..S...D
what always seems to spell itself
in her alphabet soup.
she packs a toothbrush
for her last acid trip to Asgard.
to rest at home
as the goddess of a "good fucking high"
adrenaline must rush to meet her lonely heart
and shock her back to solemn beauty.
some more blush and she'd be perfect
hide those tobacco shards in her smile
and she'd be well enough for a picture
pulling the wrinkles out of her relapse.
I've got a crutch in my bedroon
she's gnawing at my neck.
and she's seemed to swallow all of me
she's my peace sign shaped trainwreck
New Life...
"Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head...."
a quote eloquently crooned by Mr. Morrissey himself
during his Smiths days....
and something I felt so related to at some point.
"I Know It's Over" by the Smiths is still one of my favorite songs of all time, because it speaks to me, as so many songs do, and at the same time, as so many don't.
This is my official self proclaimed, new start. I've separated myself from the past, and am focusing on the new. I now live in whittier, i work at Wal-Mart (Don't cry for me)
Yes, I am part of the corporate machine, I once advocated my disdain with. Oh well, money is getting made, right? I'm on ther verge of getting fired anyways. I've made some enemies among the higher-ups.
Anyways, I know I havent always been there for most of my friends, and most of my family, but I am here now, and the isolation in my big garage, has helped me overcome some demons. I have my cousin Chris on my side helping me with that. He's only 16 but I've matured him into someone I can identify with. I am single again as well. I was dating a girl for years that literally warped my being into something I didn't understand, and something I couldn't love because it wasn't perfect. She betrayed me and left me. Strange thing is....I'm happy. I actually am happy. I feel like the old Johnny-Ray, the one that lived without that dark tapeworm telling me how to be perfect. All I want now, are my friends, my family, my music, and my Evil Dead trilogy to keep me up at night, (I love you Sam Raimi, haha)
Well good people, I must end this entry before I tire out my own fingers...
peace, love and understading
Costello sings me to sleep
-Johnny-Ray
when you get a chance, listen to "Wet Sand" by the Red Hot Chili Peppers
the song changed my life
not more than "Stumbleine" by the Smashing Pumpkins but it has done more than i imagined it could have.
a quote eloquently crooned by Mr. Morrissey himself
during his Smiths days....
and something I felt so related to at some point.
"I Know It's Over" by the Smiths is still one of my favorite songs of all time, because it speaks to me, as so many songs do, and at the same time, as so many don't.
This is my official self proclaimed, new start. I've separated myself from the past, and am focusing on the new. I now live in whittier, i work at Wal-Mart (Don't cry for me)
Yes, I am part of the corporate machine, I once advocated my disdain with. Oh well, money is getting made, right? I'm on ther verge of getting fired anyways. I've made some enemies among the higher-ups.
Anyways, I know I havent always been there for most of my friends, and most of my family, but I am here now, and the isolation in my big garage, has helped me overcome some demons. I have my cousin Chris on my side helping me with that. He's only 16 but I've matured him into someone I can identify with. I am single again as well. I was dating a girl for years that literally warped my being into something I didn't understand, and something I couldn't love because it wasn't perfect. She betrayed me and left me. Strange thing is....I'm happy. I actually am happy. I feel like the old Johnny-Ray, the one that lived without that dark tapeworm telling me how to be perfect. All I want now, are my friends, my family, my music, and my Evil Dead trilogy to keep me up at night, (I love you Sam Raimi, haha)
Well good people, I must end this entry before I tire out my own fingers...
peace, love and understading
Costello sings me to sleep
-Johnny-Ray
when you get a chance, listen to "Wet Sand" by the Red Hot Chili Peppers
the song changed my life
not more than "Stumbleine" by the Smashing Pumpkins but it has done more than i imagined it could have.
Monday, January 7, 2008
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